my weekend

It's Tuesday morning - I can't seem to type or speak the feelings that are inside me, brain to - hand/ mouth malfunction.

I have not really felt like posting on my blog, although I have had a good weekend as far as socialising is concerned.. my relationship with my boyfriend has took a real nosedive. I think my moods and suicidal ideations have finally got on top of him and he has got to breaking point. He is an absolute nervous wreck and says it is my fault. He says he is constantly worrying about me, especially as he works away a lot and worries what I'll do when he is away, he is an anxious fella at the best of times and I think he has had all he can take of me.
My weight watchers diet has fucked up, I have drunk 10 times my body weight in wine whilst out with friends at the weekend, probably to mask my feelings of shitness. And I am in the process of binge eating