road of life

Sunday, September 04, 2005

back in the land of the blog

I'm on day 5 of a 10 day stretch at work. Not feeling too bad.
Did not take my seroxat for a good few days this week as I mistakenly thought that I would get away with stopping them as i had only been on half the dose for ages. But I was dizzy as hell last night, well, not dizzy, it is a hard feeling to explain, it's like my brain and eyes are made of very thin jelly which wobbles around vigorously, so I had to take some again. Oh not to mention the head shocks!
My boyfriends grandad died today. He and his grandad were very very similar, i noticed this when i first met his grandad. In that neither of them say very much, they both had the same sort of demeaner (is that a word I just made up? I dunno) When his grandad had a surprise birthday party for his 80th not so long ago, he was mightily pissed off, I can imagine my fella being the same :D

B.f's dad was down from the north east today and we all (me - fella - his dad- and my felas' brothers family) gathered at my boyfriends brothers house as he has a big house. My fellas' sister in law put her holiday snaps on the t.v to show us, saying they would help my fellas' dad think of something else... silly bitch. She should have some respect! I found it hard knowing what to say to fellas' dad. He at one point said , ' who will offer me a hug?' now, where I come from this is not something a man would say openly, but he is rather off his trolley (i love him btw he is ace :) ) so I offered my hugging services, and I just tried to listen to how he was feeling, tho i couldn't say much , I felt useless.