had to cut off before - as I was writing my blog my friend texted me saying she was waiting outside. We have been to the pictures to watch final destination 3. I was relieved when she suggested we have a drink in the bar before the film - I thought a wine may relax me- all it did was make me want to wee. Conversation was so hard for me - I enjoy being out- but it is sooo hard. I often think - it would be easier to just never socialise again - but I don't want to become a recluse (again!) 1000 anxious thoughts per minute flitting through my head making it impossible to engage in 'normal' one to one convo. I thought my shrink would help me get over this - all she does is talk about my past and how bad I am feeling - ok but I want some practical help on how to deal with my thoughts and get through situations like this so I don't end up avoiding them or making a hash of them.