my before pic

This is me in New york at 13 stone 5lbs, or perhaps more, as I only weighed myself a few weeks after I came back. (well it may as well be me, the pic i have of myself looks JUST like this)

Just been contacting my 2 sisters via text. I've never been as close to my sisters as my brother and i don;t se them that often, infact I get quite SA around them, I think they don't like me, ESPECIALLY the older one, I always thought she didn't like me. It prob came from the fact that they are quite a bit older than me (19 years 16 years older) and when I got a bit older myself I heard about nights out / in / holidays together that my 2 sisters were having and I felt very left out. One xmas when I was about 21 my 2 sisters and my mum arranged to go out for a meal and a drink and they never invited me, I went absolutely mad, my 2 sisters came to my house to pick my mum up and I was ranting on 'I may as well not have a fucking family, no-one cares about me, you leave me out like I'm not even part of any family' and that feeling lives with me even now, like i am nothing to them, just an inconvenience that annoyed them when they were teenagers living at home, and now couldn't give a shit if they never saw me again. I was closer to my brother as he more or less brought me up while my dad was out drinking and womanising, but as my brother is now dead I got thinking I should make an effort to see the family I have left. I only have my mum, dad and 2 sisters, no other family, and the sisters I have don't wanna kno, so I'm fucked, when my parents are gone (they are getting on a bit now) I'll be so alone. I have neices and nephews, on the rare occasion I see them I can't speak to them coz of this damn disorder of mine, SA or whatever it is is estranging me from my whole family. Anyway, I've been trying to arrange to meet my sisters at some point but they just don't seem bothered :( Even if I do manage to see them I'll feel like it is an effort for them and they can't wait for me to go home. I miss my brother. Anyway I've ranted on enough.