waste of space

that's me, i've done cock all today. Woke up and posted on my blog earlier, filled my face then thought I just don't want to be awake / alive, so retired back to bed. I feel so low / ugly / frustrated etc I just could not face life. Got up when b.f came home. We had something to eat and I cleaned the rats out, then I cleaned the kitchen, then I've just been watching telly. What a fucking waste of time being alive.